To want growth, you have to believe in yourself

I'm shockingly learning more about myself as I get into my new found kick (for those unaware, I've sought professional support, coaching, if you will to help my personal and professional power)...I had a very interesting experience last night that honestly helped unlock past emotions to really surface why I am a certain way - feelings and events that led to what I am today - an almost 40-somethin' character that realizes (luckily) that I need to change how I react to professional settings and how I can enrich my life as a father and husband.

It sounds kind of cooky, I'll admit, but I just have this sense of value, worth, security, and compassion that I couldn't explain a few days ago. I need to learn more about this thing (we'll call it for now), but I'll share more in the coming days. It's truly life changing - one building block at a time. But, I'm open, vulnerable, and willing to adopt change, spill my guts...I want to feel better about taking on new challenges in life, learning how better to negotiate with clients/peers, being a better role model for my young daughters, a better hubby, and advancing my career.

Is it an early midlife crisis, this life coaching desire? Nah. But, I'm thankful to those nearest me who believe in me and for me having the guts to believe in myself and reach out for external support. Pretty awesome discoveries so far.

Still seeking an old book called, I'm, OK, You're OK. I'm reading Crucial Conversations right now. Love & Logic will be next.

Taking myself from adequate to extraordinary

Alright gang...I finally bit the bullet, and I mean bit-down-hard.

I'm officially on a book kick and I've got self-motivation on the horizon where ever I look...So, I'm jumping in with both feet, with the following two goals solidly on the front burner.

• Number 1: Evaluate myself. Where/how can I achieve better results in my personal life and in my professional career? How can I learn more about the inner workings of really being a "Manager". I can only do this with some serious reading - not just books I've read, but a barrage of books on several different levels - books I wouldn't think of picking up one yr ago.
• Number 2: OK, so I finally self-admitted that I need a coach, a Life Coach. No..A Motivational Coach. Well, sort of. A Personality/Attitude Coach....Well, close, I suppose. A Leadership Coach...yes, that sounds closer, I think. Maybe counseling to help unlock my "strong adult" vs. my "child"...hmm, that sounds eery, like a need a shrink or something.......I don't know what this goal is exactly yet, but I know I need professional support, a real person able and willing to guide me on my journey, someone I see biweekly or more and someone I confide in for support.

I'm excited, nervous, slightly overwhelmed, but giddy like that first day back in Grad school in a Dynamics of Social Relationships course. Let's see where this takes me. I've already jetted through a great book and I'm seeking a life coach next week to see if it's the right angle for me...